'only God can judge me' really?

being 21

I surely hate the fact that my midsem break has finally come to its end and its tomorrow. so bye-bye internet connection i'll be facing loads of tests til my brain explodes yay! Yesterday was my 21st birthday. I can't seem to brain the fact that, people said i'm going to get some wrinkles on my forehead and so.

I can still feel the excitements!

I wish to say a heartfelt thank you to each of you who took their time out just to send me those long text messages, Facebook wall posts and tweets. Thank you for all the generous wishes and du'as. Gosh! I really find it difficult to put this into words right now :/

Most of all, I'm happy being 21. I'm happy for all the people who never left my side, who never neglected me and making me their last option. I am eternally grateful for the people who always there to lift me up when i'm sad and mad. I'm thankful for this life i'm living in which is solely given by Allah swt. I appreciate my family, they're my ultimate lovers. I am completely nobody without them. And the only man I adore, thank you for putting up with me through rough and tough times- not to forget for all the happy moments too Faisal Hadi.

I came to ponder and felt stupid for whining about every little things that i don't have. How foolish i am for not taking a look around and see clearly that i have the perfect life, the perfect family and being loved perfectly by Allahu Taala :') Alhamdulillah 'O Allah Azza Wa Jalla for these amazing people and for all the trials and hardships you put me through each and everyday of my life.

Alhamdulillah Ya Kareem, You gave me all the things i needed the most. May Allah shower His blessings on us and may He grant every each us Jannatul Firdaws. Aameen!

the sad truth

Hey yegais, my mid semester break is about to end real soon so here i am updating an entry because pretty much I am bored right now. The sad truth is that i'll be facing a very hectic life afterwards. Loads of tests and quizzes are about to ruin my leisure times but i dont mind that's how students should roll kalau tak busy with tests and sorts bukan student namanya.

It's a new year. I don't expect my new year to be nice because I know life will knock us down sometimes so i have to be fully prepared and ready for any consequences. And i know life's gonna be rough once in while, i should stay strong no matter what ought to come. 

What I hoped for is to just go with the flow and fight for what's best.

And since this year is my final year for diploma, I'll end my diploma on November (if i'm not mistaken) by right, i can assure that this year isn't going to be like the rest of my previous years. I just want my last year of diploma to be unlike any other. I don't wanna ask much, i just want to change for the better, create memories and tosses all the stress if I want to earn something different this year. 

I hoped for miracle to happen this year. Why? It's a secret that i won't tell

Hmm pretty much I have nothing left to say now. Just that I hope you guys would have a great days ahead of you and make this year something you could never forget.

Stay tuned for more upcoming updates. Thank you for all the words/supports being dropped by. And thank you for reading this blog, whoever you are, may Allah bless you guys (and myself) throughout our days.

"This could be the start of something new." - Zac Efron